But What Now?

I got back from my yearly 3 week international trip a week ago. Since coming home, I’ve spent almost every waking hour while not at work creating my Nepal pictures website. I finished that last night. If you want to see it, go to marlandc.com/Nepal/index.html. We spent all of our time in the Kathmandu Valley which is a very colorful place. It’s also very poor, so I spent some time re-examining my thoughts about law of attraction. How can an entire nation not know this stuff? Or maybe that’s just my Western mentality about prosperity.

The truth is, when most people saw us coming, they saw dollar signs. We are so much more prosperous money wise, but maybe not spiritually. Their religion, mainly Hinduism, is their culture. And it’s not like a fundamental religious mentality. It just really is their culture. Which is probably the main reason everything is so colorful. Hinduism and Buddhism live peacefully side by side, even as combined faiths in some quarters.

I am less than 6 months away from taking an early retirement from my job. I’ve actually thought about staying on because the economy is so in the pits and I have to work. I have to work because I haven’t made any money with internet marketing yet. And I haven’t made any money with internet marketing yet because I’m constantly looking at the next training and the next training and on and on and never fully focusing on one thing. It’s truly maddening. The more I look at this stuff, the less I feel like I know and the more paralyzed I feel in accomplishing anything.

So, I’m freaking out a little. It’s time to focus. Before I left for vacation, one of the trainings (if you can even call it that) I purchased was Wake Up Productive. It’s a weekly series of exercises by Eben Pagan to help become more focused. He talks about our 3 brains, physical, emotional and logical and how to bring them into alignment and how to understand what each of them wants as an outcome. Once we know what we want our outcome to be, we can begin to focus better. I’m on Week 6 now, learning to use a timer to do 50 minute chunks of work. The Nepal website was more like 3-4 hour chunks and has nothing to do with making me more money, but it’s done now. Now I can figure out what I really need to do and do only those things.

I have started to unsubscribe from email lists that continually bombard me with the latest internet marketing training or worse yet, the latest product launch. I wonder when we’ll see the end of the product launch frenzy. I’m sure it works for people and that’s why they do it. I just don’t want to know about any more of them.

No, it’s time for me to settle down into a rhythm of learning a particular technique and then putting it to work. Over and over again until I’m good at it and I’m making money.

I did this nearly 15 years ago when I decided to change careers to become an IT systems administrator. I studied day and night towards one goal, which was to pass the Microsoft MCSE exams. I did that for 2 years because I took the 2000 exams shortly after passing the NT exams. It was a lot of work, but I had my eye on the prize. I had a firm goal. Once I got my first MCSE, I relentlessly went after finding a job and I found one fairly quickly. Then I advanced quickly to where I am now.

Alas, now it is time for a change. And it’s time to stop freaking out. I know what I need to do. And even if I leave this job before I am making money on the internet, I have the skills to go somewhere and work part time. I have options. I’m glad I wrote this, it’s helped me sort this all out. Thanks for listening!