Maybe this blog used to be a little edgier, or maybe more people were into reading about retirement and transitions. It could be that people are just feeling thankful to have a job these days and maybe even don’t have the time to read a blog like this one. Or, and probably most likely of all, I’ve slacked off in joining the conversation with others I used to converse with.
Why is that, you say (if you’re even reading this)? Honestly, it’s that I’ve gotten twisted into an internet marketing vortex (ok, learning curve, if you will) that has taken me away from my “beginnings.”
It’s funny how amazingly fast time speeds by these days. Internet time is like the ultimate opposite of geologic time. I have this vague memory of reading about PPC and Clickbank back in 2004. Geez, 5 years ago? And then reading everything I could about affiliate marketing beginning a mere 4 years ago. And taking Yaro Starak’s Blog Mastermind course just a couple of years ago (or has it been 3)?
Yikes, am I becoming jaded or what? I’ve taken other courses since then and while I keep learning new stuff, my income has only risen, well, in geologic time increments. Which is to say, not much at all. Although I am starting to understand this game much better. Which is maybe why I’m becoming jaded.
And, of course in the meantime… the economy took a dive and people had to go back to work and put off their dreams of having the freedom to do something completely new and different. There’s something comforting about having a regular paycheck right now if you’re so lucky to have one.
If you’re not, well, I remember those days all too well in the early 80’s when I wasn’t working at all and freaking out about it the whole time, instead of enjoying myself, which is what I should have been doing. It’s not like I wasn’t enjoying myself at all, but I was spending way too much time worrying. And while I was spending all that time worrying, I had a roof over my head and I had plenty to eat. I had lots of friends and I even took guitar lessons. Shoot, I had all that time!
Guitar lessons now? I wish I had the time. Ok, if guitar lessons were really all that important to me I’d make the time.
But, instead I’m weighing the hours I work and the hours I spend getting backlinks. How crazy is that? It may be crazy, but the more I do it and the better I get at it, it gives me a different kind of joy. In the meantime, I wonder if I should just sell those damn guitars….
So what to make of all this? Probably not much more than the challenge of life and the human game goes on. And if I wrote this same blog post tomorrow, it would be different. Now there’s a challenge.
